Ok so if you know me this is nothing new. I THINK about things for a long time before I get around to doing them. I’ve been throwing around ideas of what my perfect life would be. I struggle a lot with frustration at failing myself and my family and knowing that I do know what to do, but as usual I put it off. So here goes…
#1… I HAVE to get healthy! My weight and my body is a torment to me right now. I am willing to throw myself out there because I know others suffer as I do *sigh*. As of today I weigh ….237.2 at 5’4.75″ 😦 I am a classic yo-yo dieter. Eighteen Months ago my weight was 236, and after nine months of healthy eating it was 214, now it has shot back up. I know how to eat right, I know how to exercise, but I just don’t follow through. This is a HUGE area of discontent to me, and I know that I am not going to feel good until I conquer this. I am a fan of Lysa Terkheaurst’s book “Made to Crave” and know that I am fully capable of being consistent, but just have to make myself do it. This is step one to my “Perfect Life”…getting healthy!
#2…My House! Ok I admit I want to call it My “STUPID” House because I do not understand how on earth it gets so messy! I am not the most organized person (but I do think about it a lot!) but it is cleaned quite often, almost daily, and messy again by night fall, always daily. This drives me BONKERS. I have two beautiful kiddos who know how to clean, my seven-year old daughter can get on a mission and clean better than I do, with free organizing services depending on her mood. My thirteen year old son is your typical teenage boy, willing to help depending on what consequences and rewards will be put on the table. My point is, it should not get this messy! Also, I make about 3 pots of coffee a day, and drink 2.5 of them so what the heck? I should have a spotless, very well-organized house. One day I am going to be organized! LOL ok you get the point but this is definitely step two to my Perfect Life…keep a clean house!
#3…It’s all about the Money, Honey! I feel like at this point in our lives we should have our act together. I am really good with couponing, and can remember numbers and basically know what I need to do, but I SUCK at it! I am pretty rediculous at going over budget, I am chronically late paying bills, and we can’t even really say we live paycheck to paycheck, because we are usally usually broke shortly after we get paid.. I am always scrambling looking for a way to make a quick buck to pay for whatever emergency situation I have found myself in. I have been reading alot lately, trying to find answers to this and have really been learning alot, but again it comes back to actually doing it. I am DESPERATE to stop this unhealthy and dangerous cycle, I live in fear of a real emergency. This is step three to My Perfect Life…become financially responsible!
#4…Fashionably late? I am always rushing to EVERYTHING and have to just about trick myself to get places on time. I sometimes feel like mean old Mr. Murphy has a personal vendetta against me. If I lay out the kids clothes and they are dressed early, someone will spill something on themselves three minutes before we are suppossed to BE THERE. If I have everyone ready on time, I get to the van and realize I CANNOT FIND MY STUPID KEYS! I am just a mess in this area and it drives me nuts. On the other side of the coin, I hate, hate, HATE waiting. I cannot stand to get the school 15 minutes before the bell rings when the good moms show up because I don’t know what to do with myself. I feel like I wasted my life just sitting there. I have brought books with me if you are going to recommend that, so don’t :). I know it probably says something horrible about my character, but there it is. This would be step four to my Perfect Life…being on time!
So I know that I have a lot more that I need to fix about me and my life, but that’s where I am going to start. I know I will not be perfect, but want to at least start heading in the right direction. Health, House, Money, Time! Lets see if I can get somewhere.